Self motivation

 ”The importance of self motivation can not be overly stressed. However, there is a point for everyone that this Self Motivation just does not work out any more. I feel like you can only go so far with this, and when you hit the certain point that makes you just realize that this self motivation thing does not work for you or it’s just a fantasy bubble that you created to protect yourself from the miserable life that you have to deal with everyday, there is nothing left for you but just a depressing trip back to the reality and disappointment. It is a rude awakening.

Vamprie – Edvard Munch

Let me put it this way. Self motivation only works when there is matching compensation for your effort. So if you don’t see this coming, stop making yourself overly motivated, because one day, if you realize that all of the dreams and fantasies you made up to motivate your sorry asses are nothing but just hopes and wishes, then the reality hits you with pile of “fucking look at yourself. You tried so hard, but haha! you ain’t going nowhere” kind of feeling. When life does this to you, you will feel like shit. Guaranteed. There is nothing worse than feeling like you have worked your ass off wishing to get somewhere and to be somebody, but actually you have not gone anywhere and still you are a nobody.

So, don’t get your hopes too high.”

I truely wish that I am going through a phase that everyone has to go through. The phrase that everyone must take in order to make the next big step. But I can’t deny the fact that this is exactly how I am feeling nowadays.